For Fear

"For Fear"

I don't look 

at anyone 

in the eyes 

for fear they may 

   discover the sadness 

   I'm hiding 

   just behind 

the glossed sheen in my own.

The weight of its

slow, solemn ache 

is hidden inside my bones 

below my thin 

delicate skin 

hoping 

the shamefull sadness 

does not find a path 

up 

toward my eyes 

and release itself 

from within me 

into perfect 

crystal salt drips 

for all the world to see,

I don't look at anyone anymore, 

   let alone 

   their keen eyes. 

I'm too scared 

to even look 

into my own 

for fear 

I may see something 

I have  tried to ignore.  

I have chosen to not see 

and instead have watched 

as my thoughts 

form what I perceive 

what the world will be,

and I stay back behind

a carefully crafted

perception

that if I stay just still enough,

the world will just forget about me.

I can finally never worry

about all those eyes

looking

and I can restfully

close my own

never having to look

into them again.

-Armando Torres