What It Felt Like

"What It Felt Like"

I remember what that felt like,

     when the world felt

     infinitely huge

     and yet

     every corner of it

at any point

     felt within my reach

just whenever

     I decided to move for it.

Distant lands

passed the silky haze

laying over the distant mountains

existing

among the frothy clouds

hundreds of miles away.

A world of wonder

that

got me thinking

that perhaps

the things I read were true.

Dragons and orcs and wizards

existed

just beyond the horizon.

What it felt like

     to get fifty dollars

     for your birthday

     to do with it

     what you wanted.

To be in the yard

     drenching sprinkler wet

     but yet 

     it was actually

from a thunderstorm battle

among the gods

settling a dispute

of who should rule.

To go to bed

     with the world within your reach.

It's why

     I give my niece

a hundred dollars and gifts

on her birthday,

so she can tell me tales

of her adventures

and

I can remember what it felt like.

-Armand Torres

Is the Future Frozen?

Is the future frozen

     like the way we perceive the past?

Never to move 

     until

we reach it

and experience it?

Just another moment

     for us to pass

like a passing sign

on a road.

Our moments of you and I

     seem so far away now

that I barely even remember them.

I question even

     was I ever with you?

Or were they just more moments

     frozen to time?

Pretending to be a part of my life?

     When in reality

it was all just the illusion of movement,

     the facade of emotion...

Letting me believe

that we were really together,

     that we ever had a past

     Or a future at any moment in time.

I ask still,

     did our moments exist before now?

     Before then?

Is the future frozen for the sake of the present?

I wish with all my being

it's all moving.

I want to think

somewhere

we are together and happy.

Even if where I am at this moment

is alone.

I just know

somewhere

in these swirl of seconds,

the ever moving

thought

of you is with me

right this second.

-Armando Torres