Monday, December 31, 2012
The dead faces stare blankly back at me facing forward from the walls, stiff and eyes wide there to stay and stare where I look and pretend perhaps they are not there. The darkness slithers over everything as it does always into every corner except unto those faces. Dark thoughts of the most terrible kind find me this night and I cry for my regrets and yet only leave with the stained mind of a life not worth living; and I am reminded. I have found that which someone else perhaps was looking for because these horrors have me tortured and torn leaving me a pathetic mess of fear and regret. And I lay and pray and cry and stay inside this darkness forever forgetting what the day looks like and instead realizing my hell has found me. Oh the places I had yet to see.