Thursday, May 5, 2022

Everything Burns







"Everything Burns"
I...
...We feel so distant
     even though 
you... 
     are sitting right there
not a few feet away,

I can see you,
hear you,
almost touch you.

My tender skin
feels everything now 
beyond
just the physical touch,
     it's too much to endure
     most days
     to experience
     the textures of emotion
in every moment
     only to find sadness and anguish
sift through 
to form your day.

I don't think I can do this anymore,

I wish we could have had
     a more fulfilling role
in each other's lives
     but alas
we only 
     now have
rooms 
     full of susurrous sounds,
whispering doubts 
     and crowns of thorns.

At some point 
my skin 
turned
     so thin
it became diaphianous,
     and so came the demons,
     to claim 
     this silken sheer of skin,
translucent to anger and rage
so obvious to you
that it became your tool
to control all our interactions.

I became a puppet 
at the end of your strings,
     too scared to be vulnerable
     in front of you,
Never meant to find anything
beyond what was meant
by anything you said.

All those seconds, 
those minutes, 
those hours,
never feeling freedom
beyond the notion 
of what you allowed.

It's not that we feel distant
but more perhaps 
that we just don't agree on anything any longer,
     because how I feel now 
     is my tender skin 
     has been flayed and scarred.

I'll never be the same 
and I'm trying to find
the courage to be alone and away,
but life is a tricky thing,

It's scary to live life as it were,
     It's difficult to find the strength
because in the end,
it's simple...
when one realizes that,
Everything burns.
-Armando Torres

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