In This Moment

"In This Moment"

It is perhaps

     this dark and dreary night

that I'm sitting here again

reaching this whiskey's end.

I erase my mind

of you 

every time

     I take another drink.

I don't want to feel you anymore.

     I don't want to have to think.

I want to feel another night

     without the presence of your memory.

I want  to be able to dream

     without you finding me.

To navigate through the frothy clouds

to some emerald gate.

To find my way 

     through the shimmering points of pale light

     scattered across the night sky.

To fly among them

and touch them

     like fingers to a flowing river.

To crash through one moment

to find another on the other side

     without ever fearing your memory

will find me.

Somewhere among

the textures of time and memory

I sit waiting

existing already

with you as only something

I left behind.

However,

I'm still here

with the earliest memories of it

and only the empty sensation

of what feels real from it

all left just for me

     in this moment.

-Armando Torres