Memories Again

"Memories Again"

I blocked you out

for so long

I forgot how you felt

in my memories,

I forgot about those years you affected me,

I even forgot what you looked like,

I, however,

Did not Realize

I also blocked out parts of myself

in the process,

In trying to rebuild and rediscover

myself 

I found parts I still had

about my past

that are detrimental

to who I am

and your memory

was still there,

You came flooding back.

Time seems to be an illusion

in moments like that,

The space between then and now

feels as real as

Holding emotion

in my hand.

There's no difference

in between

the sliver of touch

and what my heart

tells me is real.

I'm a slave

to something my soul

has determined

to be profound to me

even if I Don't Agree.

The only way I will find

who I am again,

and become who I will be

is by finding

these memories again,

as painful as they may be.

-Armando Torres