keep smiling

"keep smiling"

I'm not wearing my misery and depression well these days.
My face
wants you to see the smile, the grin, the laugh,
But the facade
Isn't holding up and it's crumbling down now.
My tears and sorrow and pain
are in my eyes for all to see,
But.
I just keep smiling.
Gritting my teeth until my gums bleed.

The world finally feels too much for me.
The shame I feel for my pain
Is finally too much for me.
Everything feels too far away
to go back. 

Too hard to turn around.

All those bad ideas
don't seem so bad right now.
The easiest way out of this world
Seems like release.
That sounds pretty good to me.
-Armando Torres