Tuesday, November 30, 2021

I Love You






"I Love You"
Lonely thoughts begin
     to fill his head
and he again
     starts
thinking
about
     the first time they met.

"Hi," she said with a bright smile he'll never forget.
"Hi," he replied, 
     "so what are you looking to get?"
          ...he worked concessions for the high school games.
"Can I get umm..."
     ...he couldn't pull his eyes away
          he felt the warm fuzzies as they say.
"a large coke and some popcorn."
"Sure thing," he replied
     as an unexplainable fondness was born.
"I think that's it," she said.
"Okay," he ended 
     as he glanced at her lips...cherry red.

He remembers
     them
making love in bed
     among the midnight hues,
"My heart is complete with you,"
     he told her,
She replied with
     "me too."

He couldn't concentrate
on the road
as the tears
     veneered
his eyes
     making it
hard to see
     the road
in this night drive.

All he could see
     in those tiny spaces of 
          ambient thought
     was her face.
It wasn't fair.
Why did it have to be this way?

"What's your family like?" he asked.
"Nothing I would brag about."
"Oh, why's that?"
"Just some stuff I wouldn't...just stuff needs to get sorted out."
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"Don't worry, you're alright. What's your family like?"
"They're pretty boring, but I love 'em.
     My sister is pretty big on collecting Star Wars things."
"I love that. Maybe I can get her a gift this Christmas?"
"She would love that."
"Maybe I could come with you for the holidays?" she asked.
"I would love that!"

He hated this.
     Things became not what they were.
Somewhere a fork happened
     and each led away from each other.

Just then another flash of light
     blinded him
pulling him back from memory.

His mind was a mess
but focusing on those
     sweet memories
helped him focus.

He loved her.
He hated thinking of 
     the reality of what happened.

"I want to tell you something,"
     he said barely above a whisper.
She looked into his eyes
     waiting for the words
          to leave his lips.
"I love you," he said.
She closed her eyes
     leaning in to kiss,
and as her lips caressed his,
she replied with,
     "I love you too."

There was nothing left to do
but drive these miles
to her.

His eyes glossed
     in salty pain,
     trying to find the road.
He just knows 
the only thing he ever knew
     that he still loves her.
And nothing would ever
     keep his heart
     the way she could.

He would regret it forever 
     if he never tried.

Here in his destruction
     He has nothing left to hide.
He reaches to the backseat
and cracks open another can
barely able to see the car lights
     in the night.
Feeling every thing he has ever felt
     at the same time,
          he loses himself
drifting into the oncoming lights.

I love you
     he finally tells the night sky.
-Armando Torres

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