innate continuance

"innate continuance"
What am I supposed to feel today? 
Or the next? 
the first one of the year; 

perhaps some kind of revelation 
or maybe 
just all the same things 
I already feel
   daring me to change, 

it feels inconsequential
hurling through space 
at speeds we barely even comprehend, 
spiraling like a corkscrew through 
a larger orbit, 

and moreso 
after eons and eons of time 
has passed 
the whole galaxy will have completed 
a single revolution 
and we will have vanished 
from time, 
   existing only 
   as a spectrum of light 
   that has long left this place, 
taking with it 
all our meaning 
as it also 
slowly disappears 
to the epochs of moments, 

We are all moving 
right now 
at one thousand miles per hour 
sitting at our desk or chair 
or just standing somewhere, 
as the earth rotates; 
   and the earth moves 
   around the sun 
   at 67,000 miles per hour 
as we fly through space 
with barely any acknowledgement of it;
with barely any change of our perception; 

The place I was sitting 
just a moment ago 
is not the same space 
I am sitting in now 
among the cosmos;

We will never be in 
the same exact spot again 
as it all expands, 

Stretching out further and further, 

Change is inherently 
a part of existence, 

So how am I supposed to feel 
at those cosmic levels?
or even right now in this moment?
 
It may all feel inconsequenstial. 

But right here, 
right now, 
I feel you and somewhere behind me
is a trail of my emotions
spreading out into the cosmos
like the wake of a boat;
  I just know
  I want to love you 
and capture our own moments 
inside the infinitely expanding cosmos; 

to be stripped away from that scale 
and focus infintely inward on us
to have our own moments 
inside the spectrum of light 
that we all 
will
eventually become
flying through the infinite cosmos.

-Armando Torres