What You Left Behind

"What You Left Behind"

There's a part of me

that wants you to hurt,

wants you to miss me,

     for you to say sorry

and beg

and plead

for me to take you back

     but for me to calmly say no.

It's a dream however,

     because

     you're never coming back.

Instead,

     I'm left with

     lonely despair

trying with all I have

to not fold

underneath

the weight of silence

There's a part of me

that wants you to feel what I feel,

for you to find the mistakes

that were made

and realize

your life should be with me

but for me to have already

     moved on to another life.

It's a fantasy however,

     because

     you have already moved on.

I saw you

at the grocery.

     You introduced me to your new life.

I said hi,

and then parted ways.

You didn't even see

     the gaping hole 

     you left in my chest

     from our past.

Didn't notice

the swell of pain

behind my eyes

Or

the decaying rot

of my wound.

You saw none of it

as you smiled

and turned

and walked away

with your new life.

Without another thought

about

     what you left behind.

-Armando Torres