old pain

"old pain"
I sit in silence this night once more,
     pondering the pain,
Lingering
inside the vacant space of thought,
hoping perhaps an answer exists.

I can see now
how someone can live in sorrow,
drinking down moments of regret,
as to not think
     perhaps those mistakes
          that were made
               would have been
                    all the difference.

I trade the calm for the chaos of silence,
where the silvery veil of thought
pulls back,
falling gently,
before letting me
melt away
     into oblivion
     once again.
-Armando Torres