only way out is through

"only way out is through"

So many nights spent crying 

into a slobbering mess,

barely able to see anything 

through the red sting of my loneliness,

   existing amongst 

   a crushing and suffocating silence 

   pushing down on my shoulders,

sinking through the terrestrial plane

as the ground pulls away 

from me 

from overhead;

reaching up with outstretched fingers

grasping desparately at anything

as it all gets further away;

Falling through 

millions and millions of fathoms,

I didn't think it could go deeper;

I wanted to just ride my sadness 

straight to hell 

and hope I would just become 

another demon 

   but instead

   I met god somewhere down there 

   inside my deepest sorrows; 

in the furthest recesses 

of my own self hate, 

just waiting for me 

to find the right corner in my mind,

patiently existing somewhere 

between silence and meaning

whispering to me

it will be okay.

-Armando Torres