only way out is through

"only way out is through"

So many nights spent crying 

into a slobbering mess,

barely able to see anything 

through the red sting of my loneliness,

   existing amongst 

   a crushing and suffocating silence 

   pushing down on my shoulders,

sinking through the terrestrial plane

as the ground pulls away 

from me 

from overhead;

reaching up with outstretched fingers

grasping desparately at anything

as it all gets further away;

Falling through 

millions and millions of fathoms,

I didn't think it could go deeper;

I wanted to just ride my sadness 

straight to hell 

and hope I would just become 

another demon 

   but instead

   I met god somewhere down there 

   inside my deepest sorrows; 

in the furthest recesses 

of my own self hate, 

just waiting for me 

to find the right corner in my mind,

patiently existing somewhere 

between silence and meaning

whispering to me

it will be okay.

-Armando Torres

into the aether

"into the aether'

I've had my chances at love;

had my 

once in a lifetime a few times and every time

they've ended up 

with more than a few regrets;

When in it 

I never think it possible 

that I'm being such a damn ignorant idiot;

thinking that somehow 

I know what I know

and it's the truth 

just to realize later 

I had more than my fair share 

of the blame

in being a damn fool;

Once it's gone 

on whatever day it happens 

and I mean truly done, 

it doesn't matter what apology I have 

nor they 

because as the moments permeate 

throughout all of space

whatever that was us

has already been absorbed 

between the particles of energy and matter

dissipating into the past of rarefied aether

making disappear whatever it was

that ever made us come together

in the first place.

-Armando Torres

entangled

"entangled"
I got myself into a situation, 
I kissed you 
when I shouldn't have, 
I touched your face 
and said you were beautiful 
and even though it is true 
I should have kept those things internal, 
I shared an intimate moment with you 
when I should have kept it platonic, 
my heart isn't really where you 
think it is, 
I think it was our loneliness 
that had us kissing, 
I accidentally on purpose 
captured your heart 
and I don't want to hurt it.

-Armando Torres