Saturday, September 20, 2025
...anymore
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Monday, September 8, 2025
barriers
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Wednesday, September 3, 2025
you:
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Monday, March 31, 2025
atonement
"atonement" I want a way out of this labyrinth, my memories of you act like long corridors to get through and every time I turn the corner of one there always seems to be another memory waiting, I can't seem to find the end and each time I feel close to one I see you again, maybe it's because these walls keep changing, sliding and shifting as I make my way down another long one, I can feel the ground beneath me moving as this whole labyrinth keeps changing around me just so I can't escape, the air always feels so tight and the open sky above is only there to taunt me with the hope that I could possibly be free from here, but even when I see the open space at the end of a corridor, the walls always shift and shape into corners and there you appear again, my curse, my cross to bear, my burdens with which I pay my penance. I need a ball of thread to finally be able to escape.
-Armando Torres
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Thursday, March 20, 2025
lingering vestige
"lingering vestige" There's heartbreak in my soul, though that word is not entirely conducive to how it feels for me, It's not like a crack in something broken, it's more like a sticky substance, an oily sap that attaches to everything inside me, The break came when we separated, when our connection ceased to be, what remains in the aftermath isn't a structure broken in two but an awful dark substance that can never really be cleaned thoroughly, There will always be hints of it somewhere in the furthest recesses, a kind of residue that never really goes away, just a vague stain of heartbreak of what I once felt for you.
-Armando Torres
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Saturday, March 15, 2025
Too Long
"Too Long" There have been nights where I have allowed my mind awful self-torturous thoughts, dreadful notions billowing out like blood through water throughout my psyche, Staining all my other thoughts in crimson, spreading out toward the boundaries of my nature, pushing on the walls of my fundamental principles, Clawing and scraping to break through like some kind of ravenous animal, Too long have I let these thoughts spread, Too long have I accepted these ideas, They are tearing now at the delicate membrane of my flesh and essence, ripping apart my existential ligaments and tendons, roaring through to the other side, beyond the boundaries of my mind, Scarlet streaks dripping down my face of pure primal rage, a bloody grimace desperate to see through with eyes of ruby, with snarling red teeth and crimson skin, looking upon the eldritch vistas of the infinite, unspeakable views laced with madness and frenzy, It is here in the beyond I begin to realize the fleshy boundaries of my existence were there to protect me, We were never meant to venture through the beyond, never meant to feel the fringes of abstract thought, I can feel the ethos of my life fraying, they are beginning to split like fabric with loose thread, I'm unraveling into the infinite and even though my body will remain, who I was will no longer be, do not trust me if you see me, I am gone, never to return, never again to be, I am laced with madness and frenzy.
-Armando Torres
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Wednesday, February 26, 2025
without shape
"without shape" I want to write things that make me feel the same way a sad song can tear through my heart, or how a lavishly orange sunset can look like painted brushstrokes of art, to find the right way to phrase certain words that allows my nostalgia to play with my melancholy, so that my memories can find the meaning inside elegant piano melodies where otherwise would be just empty sadness with no outlet for release, I want to find the words that describe what my soul is feeling, that uncanny sensation where the formless takes shape as it crashes upon the diaphanous boundaries of what is ethereal and what is corporeal creating what I know as emotion, Without any of my words that allows me to understand it I cannot know what it is that I am actually feeling other than knowing that it is in fact something to be felt, it is as tangible as touch and as formless as sight, Without the keys to the lock all I will know is there is a door with something behind it, I just know there are ways in any language to communicate this deep well of things that I feel that have no form.
-Armando Torres
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Friday, February 14, 2025
see you around
"see you around" your memory tends to linger with me even though I know we were wrong romantically, I wish we could go back to being friends, back before the wreckage we left in our wake, it was always too much to ignore, too much to not take a chance but in the end, we did and in the process destroyed all that we had before, there are moments I miss, sure and with time we may perhaps mend but knowing all the hurt I just don't know if there is enough time in a single lifetime to heal the depths of our wounds, so I wish you well and who knows, maybe I'll see you on the other side.
-Armando Torres
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Thursday, February 13, 2025
it's nice to see you
"it's nice to see you" Here we are again, feeling the same way again, what do we do this time, I'm not sure, I'm not even supposed to have any memory of this beyond the threshold of the veil, Only the primordial feeling of connection that we will always have no matter where we exist in the cosmos should be there but for some reason I remember everything; I don't know what will happen this time but for some reason the powers at be have allowed me to retain all my memories, I can see this is the same stretch of time we once had but we are at the beginning of the connection once again and perhaps I think I do know what I would have to do but it's not the right time. I think maybe perhaps could be possibly, that my heart is finally realizing that yes, I do in fact love you but sadly we are again in the wrong stretch of time this time. But It was nice to see you though.
-Armando Torres
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Saturday, February 1, 2025
Stygian Stars
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tenuous
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Friday, January 31, 2025
nascence
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Monday, January 13, 2025
sanctum (second draft)
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Sunday, January 12, 2025
my intangible sanctum
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Plangency
"Plangency" If ever there was a space where my sorrow was beautiful, it would be there next to your piano, letting its notes paint out loud the melancholy in heart for all to hear, allowing my sorrow to be spun into fine silk of black crushed velvet sheening in melody and rhythm. Closing my eyes swirling inside a dream within a dream, knowing if I were to wake up tomorrow and grab a moment from the infinitely cascading reflections of thoughts, I would still hear your piano notes in all my waking moments.
-Armando Torres
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Thursday, January 9, 2025
lesson never learned
"lesson never learned" I've grown used to rejection even if it doesn't make it any easier, I've been on the losing end of attention many times before and even though my heart has calloused over from so many years of experience there are still those rare moments the hardened skin loosens and falls away leaving a small tender weakness vulnerable enough to the hurt all over again, it's just enough space for something to sneak in and make me believe like an idiot that perhaps this time is different but it usually isn't, usually it's just another lesson to lay on top of that vulnerable spot and begin hardening my skin again.
-Armando Torres
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Tuesday, January 7, 2025
single
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Monday, January 6, 2025
into the aether (version 2)
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Sunday, January 5, 2025
only way out is through
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into the aether
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