Monday, March 20, 2017
I lost you somewhere
in between the fights and our lovely nights,
somewhere beyond our first kiss,
but now nothing is left of what was us,
just single moments cut away to reminisce.
All those nights we spent together
talking for hours
selling away the day
for moments with each other.
Looking for the chances
to touch your hand,
Remembering the first time
your lips touched mine
and holding one another.
the silence hangs heavy now that you're not here,
Suddenly now all this pain
and I have no blame to give
because I tell myself I was worth leaving,
even if you said to me as much hurtful things as I did to you.
we fell apart,
It is here where the silvery veil of thought
pulls back for me,
and memory seems to fall gently
with December's chill.
Touching ever so softly before melting away
only for another to come along and touch
with another reminiscent flash
of a time long since passed.
I've thought a lot about these pieces.
I hold you dear I do, I miss you
but now only realize it isn't you,
you left a long while ago, you are no longer here,
so time holds no solutions
when I can't figure out
how to go one day without you.
I hate how much you still mean to me.
I stand here alone trying to find myself again
only to find the regrets,
hoping one day
I wake up and you are no longer in my thoughts,
hoping this pain would just end.
But every time I see your side of the bed
I feel the hole again.
I don't know how to say I miss you
because I've been told I'm not supposed to,
but how am I to fall out of love with you
if I can't find a way to resent you.
These pieces belong to me
and those lovely mornings
we had together
they belong to time now,
just distant memories
but always felt.
Nothing is left now but the calmness of my nights
and the somberness of day,
Nothing is left of what was us,
just single moments cut away,