it's happening

"it's happening"

It happened, 

you exist now 

in that space in my mind 

where I think about you 

all the time,

I think about 

how you rest your head 

on my chest, 

the way you smell 

when I put my nose 

against your hair, 

how I crave to gently kiss 

your forehead 

and how I hold you tight 

as you joke with me,

 

Sharing our stories 

with each other 

as we laugh away 

the hours of the day,

   as the colors of daylight 

   slowly turn 

   into the hues of dusk, 

never noticing 

the light blues 

turning into the shades 

of night,

I just listen to you 

and hear about how you grew up,

     how you had to build 

your strength on your own, 

heard about the stretches of years 

where you felt so alone 

and depressed, 

how life felt its heaviest 

and as I listened 

I could feel in myself 

feeling 

how I don't ever want you 

to be unhappy like that, 

how you deserve so much more 

than that, 

How I want to take on 

that responsibility 

and try to make you feel 

your best 

everyday, 

That's what exists inside me

now,

and I'm just trying 

to come to terms with it,

because it can be 

kinda scary.

-Armando Torres