"it's happening"
It happened,
you exist now
in that space in my mind
where I think about you
all the time,
I think about
how you rest your head
on my chest,
the way you smell
when I put my nose
against your hair,
how I crave to gently kiss
your forehead
and how I hold you tight
as you joke with me,
Sharing our stories
with each other
as we laugh away
the hours of the day,
as the colors of daylight
slowly turn
into the hues of dusk,
never noticing
the light blues
turning into the shades
of night,
I just listen to you
and hear about how you grew up,
how you had to build
your strength on your own,
heard about the stretches of years
where you felt so alone
and depressed,
how life felt its heaviest
and as I listened
I could feel in myself
feeling
how I don't ever want you
to be unhappy like that,
how you deserve so much more
than that,
How I want to take on
that responsibility
and try to make you feel
your best
everyday,
That's what exists inside me
now,
and I'm just trying
to come to terms with it,
because it can be
kinda scary.
-Armando Torres
