for always

"for always"
My head hangs heavy
toward the ground,

The sounds and colors
of the world
melt away,
          and my mind
     exists now
     purely on the periphery
     of where
     reality and time
     split,

I don't notice the soft breeze
swirling through the trees
or
the leaves of every shade
of orange and brown
dancing
and
jumping
at my feet,

I see only memory
as the here and now
as it slides past me,
leaving me
with these hollow thoughts,

where is it I exist
if not here...
Now,
on this bench,
waiting,

where is it
they've all gone
since the last time,

     I don't remember anymore,

I look up now
and
see the world has changed,
so much,

I do know
they've all
been gone for some time,

I wait however,
like always,
as the seasons change again,

Reminisce again
when they used to come visit,

The world has moved on from me
                        and I wait as a relic of a bygone time,

where is it
that I exist
If
                         they've left for always,

the world finally fades
and
I feel the uneasy peace
                         Of being forgotten to time.
-Armando Torres

Happy Birthday Corina